“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.” -George MacDonald

I'm just not even going to go into detail about the way I ate this weekend.....just..no. All I can do is get back on track today --- eat well and run. I haven't had a weekend like this in a long time where I indulged without a thought, so I don't feel entirely bad about it. I just want to move on from it, get it right starting today, and not dwell on it.

Something I noticed about this weekend is that (and Mom says the same thing) I value spending time with people more than I value food. What I mean by this is that when we go out or have people over, its incredibly easy to forget about the way I should be eating in order to enjoy eating and drinking with friends. Its easy to just focus on having a good time in favor of sticking to a healthy diet. But the more I thought about that, the more I thought about the fact that I used to be able to do both. In the beginning, I really had no problem enjoying my time out with people while still being able to eat correctly. It comes back to that whole fear of the unknown subject, but it shouldn't have to be that way. I know that I can do it the right way and still enjoy myself, so why do I have such a hard time with that? For the most part this weekend, I only over did it at night. During the day I was fine and ate well. There were too many late-night snacks and a very sweet brunch on Sunday. I honestly just could not pass up the apple crecents Mom made....and I don't regret it because they were absolutely, ridiculously amazing...

Anyway, like I always say, all I can do is make it right today. All I can do is eat correctly and run. All I can do is push myself to be good. I do this too often these days. I hate it. I MUST regain control and finish this. I have to. I have no choice. That's the only way I can look at this task; as if I have no choice. I am strong enough to do this and I have confidence in myself to do this. My only concern right now is that I'm letting some of you down. I haven't set a very good example over the past couple of weeks, but I have every intention to regain your faith in me by fixing it right now. I promise that I am getting back to being the girl you've come to trust and look to for motivation. Just bear with me and I'll show you that I can do it.