"The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend." -Throeau

Do you ever have those days where you just feel more upbeat than normal? I don't know why, but I'm having one of those days. These kinds of days used to be few and far between for me, but lately they're occuring on a regular basis. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I'm losing again (lost another pound this week!) and pushing past this plateau finally. That kind of thing really gets me pumped and really gets me thinking more positively.  Another reason is that I've been willing myself to be positive. Even if I'm not fully feeling it on the inside, projecting it outwardly has helped make them meet in the middle. I wish so badly that I could make everyone feel the way I do, but I know that I can't. The best I can do is spread the positivity through Facebook statuses and posts in this blog, and sometimes I feel that is enough, but I can't help but think I could be doing so much more. I want to make a difference in people's lives and help them realize their potential and their strength. This is coming from a place of experience. I've had a few influences in my journey, and I am so grateful for them, but I want to be so much more. I want to be your friend. I want to be your confidante. I want to help you on a personalized level, not just through my writing. I want to help others in the sense of an actual friendship. If you need help, I'm your girl.

I know a lot of people don't necessarily feel the need for such a relationship, but I can tell you right now that if you're trying to live your life alone, go through a weight-loss process alone, or just trying to get through stressful situations alone you're gonna have a bad time. This journey has been hard enough for me, and the thought of having to go through it alone makes me cringe a little bit. I could not have done this alone. Period. End of story. If I had not had my mom and some of my friends, I would never have gotten this far this quickly. I may have done it, but I don't think it would have been to this degree. I've tried going through things alone, it was a bad time. I would have been much happier in stressful situations if I had had the courage to let others in to help me. You cannot live without human connection, without love, without support, without friends or family. You must share your life with someone. If you're having trouble finding someone to share with, I most emphatically offer my friendship and myself to you. If you ever need someone to talk to, someone to vent to, someone to complain to, someone to rejoice with, someone to help lift your spirits, someone to offer advice, someone to encourage you, someone to snap you back into reality, someone to share with, or just simply someone to talk to, I'm your girl.

I used to think I could live life keeping to myself, that I could bottle everything up inside and just hope that bad things would go away. That, my friends, is the WRONG way to live. If you keep things inside for too long, you will explode and you will have a meltdown. Take it from someone who has had many a meltdown...Just ask my mom....It's no way to live. You simply must have someone in your life to help you. I promise you that sharing and asking for help is not a sign of failure or weakness, it is a sign of courage in the sense that you were brave enough to share with someone your troubles and trust in them to hear you out and help if they can. If you don't have someone like this in your life, I'm your girl.

You have a choice. You do not have to go through this life alone. You're never alone, God is always available for you. Pray and He will listen. Talk to him, and He will help guide you. But, like I've said before, you must connect with other humans. You must share your life, you must be willing to let your guard down and let people in. Not just any people, positive people who are going to help lift you up and encourage you. Cleanse your life of people who are going to bring you down with negativity and drama. If you need a friend, I'm your girl.