"You are only as lazy or lacking in willpower as you think you are." - Ken Christian

Ya know what's difficult? The fact that I'm still being subjected to the left-over Halloween candy in this house....I know, I know. I should be able to resist without any problems, but...its chocolate! I'm not going to lie and say that I haven't had any, because I have. I try my best to stay out of their kitchen and away from that big, full bowl, but its really, really difficult. I've done OK so far this week, but I could be doing better. I did wonderfully over the weekend, so I definitely feel good about that! Being in this house with all of these goodies tests my willpower daily.

For a while, me and mom got out of the habit of cooking dinner during the week like we did for so long. Recently, we've gotten back into the swing of things with that and I've really benefitted from it. Its so nice to have a fresh, nutritious meal after work; a meal that is filling and makes me feel good before bed. Now, if only I could get back into the running habit...Yeah...its been too long. I'm finally almost completely over my allergy issues and I think I can get back into my running routine, but rebuilding is not going to be fun. It is not going to be easy, and I'm going to be sore and hate it for a few days, but I have no choice. I'm not going to start losing again until I do this. I'm going to remain where I am if I do not push forward with physical activity. I wish so badly that eating right was all that I had to do, but that's not the case. I can maintain without it, but I'm not going to lose.

I'm also not going to sleep well again until I get back to the running. Running makes me tired, it expends all of my energy and helps me to sleep. I haven't slept well since I stopped running. Even if I wasn't going to continue losing weight, I'd keep running just for the benefit of a good night's sleep! Oh, how I miss it....My life in general has been quite interesting and quite good over the past couple of weeks, but this task of weight loss has been looming overhead all the while. I think about it all of the time and try to focus on what I need to do. But, when I'm having so much fun, its hard to keep up with it like I should. I know from experience that I can balance the two, but I've not been doing that as of late.

I'm done being lazy about this. I'm done being unfocused. I'm done with being a slacker!