So Many Feels.

With my parents and sister arriving in less than 2 weeks, I'm growing increasingly anxious and homesick. Yesterday was Mother's Day and my family headed to my mother's parents' house for dinner and festivities. While there, I was called on FaceTime and was able to see everyone and say hello, even be in a couple of pictures! ;) But after all of this, I was very sad. It made me miss being able to take part in these events and hanging out with everyone. I've only been gone for close to 3 months now, but it feels like it's been forever since I've seen my family. Today I woke up in a wonderful mood, despite having gone to sleep too late, but was then overcome with sadness and I cried. I haven't cried in a while so it was overdue anyway, but I just couldn't help but feel down about not seeing my family and especially my mom on the holiday. 

I did shower her with gifts from afar (a card, had flowers sent to her office, and sang to her in a VIDEO...psst, click that link if ya wanna see/hear it ;), but none of these can make up for the fact that I couldn't see her and hug her on a day that honors her. I am so beyond ready for them to be here next Friday (holy cow, it's next Friday!), but my impatience is beginning to get the better of me! I've always been an impatient person, but this is so much worse than any other time. In the meantime, I'll do my job, take care of these kids, and focus on being healthy. Speaking of, I've done extremely well over the past couple of weeks. I haven't been running as much as I should, but I've controlled my eating pretty well. I have indulged a couple of times, but it was completely necessary...Sometimes you just have to have something chocolate....

Anyway, I've been kind of MIA with my writing lately and that is purely out of laziness, honestly. I just find myself preoccupied with other things. They're not necessarily important things, but I keep finding other things to do. I promise to get back to writing more often, but I can't promise it will be anything too interesting. I hate feeling down like this and I know it's only temporary, but I wish that I didn't have days like this. They occur less often than they once did, but I still wish they'd just go away forever! I've been stuck at home for the past 2 weekends and I need to get out of this house, out of Benicia, and just do something other than watch tv and think about food. Without my car, it's not nearly as easy as it could be. I just need to make myself perk up! I have that ability and I just need to turn my frown upside down. Like a kindergartner.